不言而喻

yep, saw this 成语 on "大头芬的世界"...

well i dunno whether this kind of thing really exist... can pple ever know something without pple telling them explicitly or implicitly? dun think so... many things can come as simple logic and common sense to u now, but i suppose these things were taught to u when you were very young, so young that you failed to realise that you were actually learning these "simple common sense" things...

"dun assume, always confirm"...this phrase often used in the army is actually true and i think pple just belittle this short statement. it's only until bad things happen then pple start to realise that they actually dun have that so-called common sense...but humans are a forgetful lot...few years later, they would have questioned a person's common-sense level when he or she commits the same mistake...

yep, parents often set a "common-sense level" for their children...sometimes they expect their children to do things in a logical manner but they did not teach them to do so... well i have no specific example for it, cuz i am also stuck in the question of whether something is common-sense or not...this explains why i am writing here to say something about common-sense...about things that can be 不言而喻...

besides "common sense" stuff that many pple think can be 不言而喻, i think emotions, feelings are also sometimes treated as "things" that pple can relate to without saying...how the h-ll can your parents know you love and respect them? they wun know clearly unless u do something or say something that confirms this mutual love. well, although i am saying all these, i think i have nv said anything that reciprocates the love from my parents... done something? not really too, except doing my best in my studies and make them proud...

isn't it time to do something?

１リットルの涙

has been watching "One litre of tears" for the past wk. just finished watching episode 6. from episode 4, there are always scenes that make me tear a little. there is a scene in episode where Ako was scolding her bro Hiroki for despising his sister, Aya, who is the female lead of the show. This scene is especially touching to me, and i think my tears just flowed...

the plot itself is already touching, as it touches on the sad encounter of a young girl, Aya, with an incurable disease. the director didn't try to make it 煽情, but somehow the story itself is just too touching for a normal person not to feel sad for her.

Aya is really a very strong-willed girl. i really wonder if i were her, whether i can take the disease in such a positive manner. i think i would be too passive and inferior to face other people's 白眼... the thought of her facing such a cruel disease at such a young age makes me feel very sad...

5 more episodes to go, wonder how much tears would i drop...

2 wks gone just like this

2 wks of school gone just like that...ok what have i done? well, i think i didn't manage my time well, although it was just good enough to prevent me from lagging behind...

my aim was to leave weekends free of studying, but i have failed to do this for this wk. left 1.5 modules worth of reading, and 2 lab preparations for this weekend. managed to finish the readings by 9pm. left with 2 lab preparations that will be done on sunday...

next wk would be the start of my labs and tutorials. so i would be busier. i think i should do my readings right after the lectures, so that i can achieve my aim of resting during the weekends at least for the 1st half of the semester. my engine must go at least hit gear 4 next wk, if not, the workload would just keep piling up...

finished the 300 word essay for NOC application just now. the limit of 300 words is just too little for me to express my interest in this programme. for those who dunno, this is a programme where students get to go overseas and be immersed in a start-up company while taking some technopreneurship's modules there. it would be a one year programme, and it would most probably extend my stay in NUS by half a yr... but i think it's worth it. i really want to get this 难得 experience. today is the deadline, i would send in the application later on in the morning after i wake up. hope i can pass the interview and be able to set off to whichever country i get selected for next yr.

spent quite alot of time during the past wk with some of Helsing's pple, esp 3 of the girls. cuz they keep popping up in raffles hall, either to talk crap or to study. well, to study is definitely good, and at least they have started studying, which i think many others still haven't done so... kudos to them for being so hardworking both in studies and playing! well, talk crap is fine too, just that i think i had too much crap-talking that i lagged a little bit during the week. maybe i can be more disciplined...can i?

friday, we had a bbq at PGP, yeah PGP, first time stepped onto PGP ground. the bbq pit was really ill-maintained, with lots of ants... that aside, the food was quite ok to me, though a bit oily, but bo bian we did a last-minute marinating... last minute buying of food and equipment... everything last minute even though we sort of planned it a wk ago...well nvm, it's the fun of the gathering that counts. well, must thank samuel and ezekiel alot, cuz they really helped alot in the choosing of food, esp samuel. my 眼光 not bad, but i really didn't expect him to be so 在行 in "cooking". side-event: nick got drunk and vomitted...dun think he drank alot, somehow he got drunk... got a 灵异 photo that we took...

the bbq ended at around 12...and i sent the girls + matthew back home. well, i think i 慌神 a bit when i promised yanping to send them home... anyway, that was the least i can do, if not they all go back so late would be quite dangerous, even on a taxi... that nite they all really tired, cuz they were abnormally quiet on the car...or izit for some other reason? a bit too quiet for a nite drive, really afraid that i would fall asleep while driving, but i didn't, even on the way back from woodlands to yio chu kang alone.

sianz, is 22 years old really old for a guy? pple keep reminding me that i am 22 liao, shouldn't be evergreen liao, blablabla... all these shit i have never thot of suddenly fall on me...a bit 应接不暇...additional stress at the wrong time...a bit loss of focus on studying...nvm i will find back my focus, and think abt it later...

ah, a new blog to write on

yes, Helsing's blog is finally out. actually nothing much was done to prepare for it. we mentioned it before, but somehow it wasn't being 重视. but nvm, since it is out now, i think i can write some Helsing's stuff on that blog, and leave more personal opinions on my personal blog...

tonite somehow couldn't study...maybe the EE2005 stuff was just too difficult for me to absorb...so many unknown equations...think they are out of syllabus since they are not mentioned in the lectures...really hope so...

realise that i haven't really touched on CS2102...got labs coming up...have to read the textbook liao...have to go familiarize with the SQL coding...if not, on the lab day, confirm will jialat...

ah next wed is my first lab, EE2005 lab E1. need to prepare for it too, but think can leave it to the weekend or next mon? see how lah, depends on the progress of more important and urgent work...

ah tired...somehow feel damn sleepy at 2354 hrs... how come? dunno lah, maybe not enough sleep from yesterday... think i finish reading EE2005 stuff then can sleep liao...

start of 2nd wk

yep, it's the start of 2nd wk of school. was a bit blue on sunday, maybe i am having some school-phobic depression...maybe i was just affected by the rain... i dunno le

started monday at 6am, as i needed to fetch my bro to school (NJC), and later to school before EE2005 lect at 8.30am. quite tired, for dunno what reason, cuz i have slept for 7 hours from 11pm to 6am. maybe the sleep wasn't good...

monday really isn't a good day for 5 hours of lectures...2 1.5-hr lectures, 1 2-hr lecture...quite tiring...and i have one tutorial after 2 lectures which would start from next wk...6 hours of lessons on the start of every wk... sianz...

but my timetable really is quite packed, especially the 13 labs i have to complete... got 4 wks i have to do 2 labs... and total of 9 wks that i have to do labs...imagine last sem i dun have to do any labs at all...

the 3 girls from my OG seem to have unlimited energy lor... can just keep talking and rambling for the whole day with big big smiles on their faces... really dunno where their energies come from...

"missed" lunch with some usual active pple of the OG due to my lecture...but nvm...:0
had dinner with them after my "Living with Math" module which ended at 7.30pm. had a simple dinner at the market in clementi ave 2 area. the prawn mee wasn't cooked up to standard, but somehow i managed to finish up the plate of mee.

we parted at around 9 plus, and this time they "automatically" decided to take public transport back home... maybe they too paiseh to ask me to fetch them home time and time again... well, that shows that they still have some 矜持 which i thot they have lost...oops! actually i ok with sending people home, but hor, quite tiring esp at nite... cuz i not a nite person... and i scared i topped up petrol too often and my father would question me... i wouldn't know how to answer him... lol...

had quite a good 5km run just now, managed to finish the run under 27:45... quite fast for me le... think it's around the same timing i usually had in the army... felt quite good that my fitness is improving, can really feel it, cuz i completed the run with ease, and i wasn't panting hard at the end of the run.

hmm, friday we would be celebrating yongfeng and chunping's bdaes... wonder how mad can it go... should be quite fun if more pple turn up. if not, always the few of us, also quite disappointing...

yup started to watch "一公升眼泪" on some website... quite touching, got 1 part in the 2nd episode my tears almost dropped... think i would eventually drop tears, as the later parts would be more touching and 煽情.

hope this wk would be a 充实 one, with my readings and tutorials done by friday, so that i can relax a bit during the weekend. and most importantly, hope that this whole wk would be enjoyable and fun! yoohoo!

Sch started, Engine not started

yes, today is the last day of 1st wk of school. what have i done? hmm... not a lot i suppose. bought books, attended lectures, finished 1 simple tutorial...still have a few readings left...

seems like my mugging engine is still on a cold start, is it due to the so-called post-o-wk blues? maybe, but i must definitely start my engine by next wk! must really sit down, and start to study!

oh ya, clocked alot of mileage within 3 days. think around 300 km. quite shiok to see the odometer jumping, from below 2000 to 2200 plus now. but this kind of mileage clocking is not very desirable, cuz it's quite tiring for on my still-perfect eyes. but somehow, i can't bear to reject their requests, since it is within my means to send them home...hmmm...

rather pleased and glad that our OG is still rather active even school has started. seems that the pple have endless energy for fun. for me, academic stress has started to kick in, so how high i can go would be determined by external factors, such as these people around me. if i am alone like now, i think i would be either studying or reading news or watching some lame videos or blogging...doing some low-energy level stuff.

yesterday i had a rather poor run, cuz halfway thru, my shin area started to be painful. probably i didn't warm up properly before the steep up-down-slope run. probably i was tired from the 1hr drive from clementi to woodlands back to clementi. though i think the former was probably the one giving me problems for my run yesterday.

oh ya, i am rather puzzled where my money has gone. i checked my account yesterday but i failed to account for around 100 bucks. hmm, wonder where did the money go? think i must be more aware of my money liao, especially now i tend to use my debit card instead of cash. got to claim back some money for the textbooks and shoes that i have bought.

finally had a 8 hr sleep since school started. for unknown reasons, i couldn't sleep well for the past few days. probably i slept late and couldn't wake up late due to the sun. luckily today, it is raining, and i mananged to sleep 8 hrs from 2am to 10am. feel quite refreshed now.

ok, tomorrow is the mass run, cum OG outing again. hope everything would be fun and fine. play hard when u can, study harder when u are not playing! so, now i am going to continue reading my textbook...:)

Pre-Sch + Post-O'wk Blues...

school is starting tomorrow...what the...i haven't even bought any books yet!

EE2005 & EE2009's IVLE pages are not up yet...this stops me from buying the textbooks...i dun want to waste my time on another trip to the bookshop, though i think i might have to, if these 2 pages are not up yet. also, i dunno which book to buy CS2102, cuz 2 books are listed, i dun wanna buy a less updated one... think i gg to buy EE2006 and GEK1505's textbooks tomorrow first. the others still can wait, i suppose.

i haven't decided which tutorial slots to choose for my modules. gek1505's tutorial slots are not up yet. i dun wanna clash my tutorials! very f'ed up, the freaking admin of science fac. i have to choose my tutorials starting tomorrow for my 3 EE modules. pls, pls, pls, make things easier for me. my labs too, are a headache, so many labs...think got 7 labs for EE2006 itself, 4 labs for EE2005, 2 labs for EE2009...would be siong semester with a lot of labs...

haven't at least browsed through the uploaded lecture notes of EE2006 and CS2102...this was what i did for the last sem, feeling a bit guilty for being so lazy, but this is partly because i was involved in the Eng O Wk for the past whole week.

will be doing some pre-reading this coming week, so that i wun lag behind or at least lag behind by only a little bit by the end of the semester. there are always obstructions that stops me from keeping to my schedule, be it external factors like RH events and activities, or family commitment or just simply my slowness in digesting the materials taught.

aim of this sem: CAP 5! have to work very hard from the start of the sem. this should be achievable cuz no english modules this sem. EE2005, EE2006, EE2009 are core modules which have quite a big cohort of around 300 ba. CS2102 is my breadth technical elective and it has also a big cohort of around 200 plus. GEK1505 is a science gem which deals with maths, which i have confidence that i can score. consistent work and efficient studying would be the way i work towards this goal. this time to achieve CAP 5 would be a little harder than sem 1 last yr, cuz this time i have to score A's for 5 modules, compared to 4 in sem 1, and the core modules are now of level 2, not level 1. but anyway, as long as i work hard throughout the semester, i suppose i would be an edge over others and get my A's.

hmm, yesterday was the last day of the eng o wk. well, quite fun, events wise, pple wise, all quite good, except for the "catered" meals.

friday was the roadrunner + fright nite. roadrunner, basically our group boycotted it, cuz we were lazy to play the games. we spent our time downtown having our lunch, talking cock, helping bid modules...fright nite was rather sianz, cuz we had to set up the stations early, waited for groups to come...luckily they didn't expect us to finish the 5 groups assigned to our station. the event was cut at 1am, not a bad timing. after that, our OG proceeded to Fong Seng for supper. 3 trips on my car there, 2 trips back to school. my car was really powerless when 7-8 guys was on my car...there we had the usual pratas and drinks. side-event: koh yu, ye lian, yanping got to have a photograph with their E2, who is Ma---ew Wu. they were basically high then, nv seen girls so 色 and 大胆, they are really "色胆包天".

after which, we went back to RH. side-event: geok meng had the chance to take a photograph with the "Beloved", S---g Lam. the girls also took photographs with Wye Man. shocking side-event: geok meng screamed "You are so cute~!" to S---g Lam. was that a love confession? lol, well, can ask her then ;)

washed up in RH, and proceeded to LT7A there to rest. didn't really rest, cuz we were playing the 24 points thingy, and truth for truth game, and also crapping along... i slept only 30 minutes... but actually i felt fine.

saturday afternoon was Rag. 佩芬 was one of the hosts, but i only got a side-view of her from far, haiz. the crowd there was really overwhelming, plus the scorching sun that can easily cause pple to get a heat stroke. i managed to watch the rag team from RH perform, as well Engin's rag team perform. well, both were good to me, cuz i saw their effort. kudos to the rag teams of every fac and hall! after which, we proceeded to Cafe Cartel at Raffles for dinner. well, the dish i ordered is kind of not up to standard, but nvm cuz i didn't really have a good appetite then...

took a taxi with Ezekiel back to school, then drove back home. i was really tired cuz i almost dozed off a few times while i was driving 100km/h on AYE and CTE back home. luckily, no accident... then i really concussed after 9 pm...

now that the Engin o wk has ended, really felt a bit lost. but i think this is rather common, 天下无不散之筵席... still can meet up, so things aren't so bad... think i have to fill this emptiness quickly with my clear goal: CAP 5 at the end of this semester.

加油！

earliest "dinner" ever

had the earliest "dinner" ever at 2.30 pm today! what the... cuz my grandma wanted to have an early meal... well actually, i treated it as a lunch, "converted" the lunch at 11.30am to breakfast, had the real dinner at 6.30pm at home...

went for shopping for furniture for the 2nd time. the last time was on Sunday. well, we were just looking for inspirations so that we can better design our new house in about 2 months' time. drove to IMM, and had a good view of classy furniture, which i think would fit into our new house. then we proceeded to Bukit Timah Road's Courts to look at other furniture. well, the Courts' furniture doesn't seem to be classy enough or attractive enough to me. we stayed there for less than 30 minutes, i suppose. then we had our "dinner" nearby upon my grandma's requeest.

yeah, moving to a new house in december. the new house has a larger land area than our current one, and most importantly, it has a much larger built-in area and bigger rooms. my new bedroom would be 2x the size of my current one, shiok! actually this house would be within 1km of my current house, so there would be little changes in our living environment, i guess. just that the bus-stop would be a longer walking distance away, and my poor fat brother would have to exercise more, which is good! lol...

hmm, ok, some personal review of the eng o wk up to date.

mon was war games and SP games. war games was quite fun, but the sun was really scorching and i got sunburnt. nite was SP games. shiok, cuz we get to make fun of the blindfolded SP couples, but the nite was quite cold, and i caught a cold. the revelation was a bit anti-climax, at least for Helsing. maybe, they should have some activities after the revelation, since interaction with and without knowing who the person u are interacting with is really different. but it was quite late lah, so i would prefer not to have after-activities...sounds contradicting...

after the SP games and revelation, we managed to get an empty single double room, thanks Jack. it was Antonia's room. most of us played games and had supper there and stayed up throughout the nite, while waiting for 5 am when we would have to report for Flag's day. super tired, esp when i was having a cold...

proceeded for Flag in Toa Payoh Central. realised that there were so many pple doing flag in the same small area. it doesn't seem logical to me to put so many pple in the same area, cuz it might irritate the passers-by. but, "competition" among the different groups of Flaggers, might be able to up the donations. well, i dunno whether we are on which side of the balance. but for me, i dun like the "competition" cuz it gives a rather bad impression to the public, and gives us difficulty to raise a certain amount of money. charity shouldn't be put under competition, this is what i believe.

due to pure tiredness and laziness, we decided to end early. some of us had lunch, after which, some of them proceed to Koh Yu's "house" while waiting for their bags to arrive in Toa Payoh at around 4pm. for me, i drove home after the lunch and had a rest to prepare for the next day's sentosa trip.

wednesday was Sentosa Day. had brunch at Seah Imm. i had limited choices cuz i was on the recovery phase from the cold i had after monday nite. then we proceeded into Sentosa Siloso Beach. the sun was hot and i got sunburnt. and i think it was a rather serious burn, cuz my legs also kanna burnt, and it's painful, esp on the neck and legs. really regretted for being lazy to put on sun-block or sun-tan lotion. treat it as a lesson learnt...

in the evening, had a da-bao dinner at Vivo, which i felt was quite lame. i would much prefer a dine-in dinner at a restaurant. but jiacheng pointed out something which i had neglected. that is, not everyone would be able to afford a rather expensive dinner. even a 20 plus bucks dinner may be quite inaffordable to some pple. realized i can be quite insensitive to pple not as 宽裕 in terms of money. this comes to the point about fairness, which i think we should strive to have but it would be impossible. it takes much EQ and deliberation to try to make things fair for everyone. hmm, getting a little over-emo here...

tomorrow would be a roadrunner game in town, followed by fright nite in campus. dunno how it would be. i would be the station master of the SDE tunnel. this tunnel is itself scary when the lights are all off, so the gamemasters/ghosts would try to prevent any accidents while scaring the freshies... dunno whether i would be involved in the roadrunner game, cuz there may be a dry run for the fright nite. but i think it would be rather lame to have a dry run cuz many councillers are involved in the fright nite, leaving very few to lead the OGs in the roadrunner game. maybe, the OGLs would be the only one following the OGs ba. nvm, everything would be settled tomorrow.

alrite, that's all for today, and happy Bdae, Singapore!

missed the performance part of the National Day Parade cuz i was dozing off on the sofa... will try to catch the repeat telecast...

sunburnt and tired, feeling a bit lucky

wah really tio burnt lor. machiam lobster now. sianz... 1 time on monday, 2nd time in sentosa "yesterday". but this time more jialat, cuz my face also kanna burnt! my shoulders painful sia, but that was due to the burn on monday during war games.

used 50 points for GEK1505, living with math. this is really unexpectedly high. cuz the past 2 sems, 1 point settled liao. this time, 348 fighting for 300 places. 50 is the minimum successful bid. wah, luckily i up my bid points from 10 to 100 during close bidding, calling from Sentosa. if not, i really will be at a loss of what to take... jiacheng should be tio owned liao lah, cuz he bidded 10 points, which he said with calculated risk though... think he miscalculated liao. but i also expected a min successful bid of less than 10 points, from bidding histories... somehow, things can go haywire esp when u least want things to go wrong...

this time, i see the GEMs and SS, the bid points are all quite high, many of them above 250 points... dunno why. CORS economy also improves like Singapore's economy... inflation in prices but income remains stagnant...

ok too tired to write much. will update on eng o wk today later after i have a good long sleep...

Engin O Wk 07

yes, saturday was the start of Engin o wk 07. my group is Helsing, and i think it is a fine group, judging from the turnout and level of highness on saturday.

well, i seldom am high for a whole day, but somehow i was quite high for quite an extended period of time on saturday. maybe seeing the freshies play around was a catalyst to ignite my engine.

later on, at 8, have to meet up with the prog comm people for a breifing on the programme and games later on. well, it is supposed to be the job of the OGL, but i, a lazy person, didn't bring formal wear for the freshman inauguration ceremony, so jiacheng has to go for it, and i have to go for the briefing. actually it is nothing lah, just that have to wake up early.

throat feeling abit uncomforatble, for no logical reason. before i ate one strepsil from jiacheng, my throat was fine. but somehow, after eating the strepsil, my throat became a bit dry. sounds wierd, cuz strepsils are supposed to make our throats feel better, isn't it?

ok nvm, fight fight fight for the next few days of engin o wk. let us enjoy every single moment!