i really have no avenue to release my emotions except here. so dun read it if u dun wan to dampen your mood.
tomorrow is her last paper. but it seems like it wun be a happy day tomolo. it's just the wrong time to emo. i am sorry for that. but i really dunno how to prevent that cuz the msg left me with practically no alternatives.
haiz. a one-word message to end the day is definitely not what i want. guess she doesnt want that too.
hope it doesnt affect her exam tomolo. cannot affect. cuz her CAP must go up, not go down, not stay stagnant. all i can do is to jiayou for her morally.
i guess all guys dun like to be compared with regards to r/s. it just feels weird. it just feels like you are being monitored all the time, and if u fail to do smt well, u will be deserted for another guy. at least, this applies for me. i dunno, maybe i am over-sensitive. but i guess i can't control what i feel too. if not, why i am rambling over here?
i know all girls like to be pampered. they tend to compare other pple's bf with theirs. thru that, unknowingly, they add more expectations of their bf. i guess this is a similar situation to society where competition leads to higher expectations of the employees. well, maybe this is unavoidable, and maybe i should adjust to that, just like how i have always adjusted to whatever competition that i face in sch.
ok enough of all this philosophical thoughts. do smt practical to solve this lame conflict.
Dear, jiayou for tomolo's exam! hope it doesnt affect your performance tomorrow. hope i can wake up in time to at least send a jiayou msg to you before your exam.
