feeling rather moody now, so decided to write an entry to 发泄 a bit. dunno why i suddenly feel so moody, so blue. it shouldn't be, it doesn't make sense that i am affected by only some words. it is not logical. maybe it's due to other factors, maybe it's due to the stress over the coming midterms and projects. maybe her words are just a trigger that causes my moodiness now.
is it alright that 2 of us have some differences in some ideas? i dunno, cuz i am not experienced. i really dunno. logically, everyone is different from each other, so there can be no one who have the same values or even the same kind of thinking. well, maybe i am worrying too much...maybe this worry is just due to my moodiness now. well, maybe...
is 感性 never a part of a man? a man cannot be 感性? sounds so illogical. a man cannot be totally a man, cuz there are always some female hormones inside a man, conversely, there are always testosterone in a female. does 感性 just belong to a girl, a woman? i dun think so. cuz i think i am 感性 right now. instead of studying, i am thinking about all these. my 感性 now prevails over my 理性, which seldom happens. cuz i am a rational person. but then, a rational person can also have his moments of being 感性.
it's a small issue actually, but then somehow, i dun feel good about it. somehow... maybe she's unknowingly become very important to me le. guess so. i really dunno what am i thinking now. just feel low, blue, and moody. well, some things cannot be explained easily, esp those concerning emotions. well, guess a sleep will do well for me...
before i sleep, i still have to study. this is the rational thing to do, and i will do it. if i procrastinate, i know i will regret tomorrow. i will ask myself why am i so irrational? ok, forget everything and focus on my studies!
